Speech Day and it’s nostalgia
Well it was Speech Day yesterday and I went back to St Gabs for it and OMG the memories of my performance last year came flooding back to me and I really miss being in an all-boys school. And I went to dance in the front during the finale cos it was the same dance we did last year and I felt so young again. I just love to dance,it makes me feel happy and alive like nothing else but singing is a whole new different world for me.
After the whole thing,I went around asking my teachers and some of my friends to selfie,and please don’t judge! I just love to selfie these days and I assure you,75% of the photos in my phone are selfies while the 25% is all lecture slides and tutorial notes (what is life?).
And I did pretty much the crazy stuff again (as expected,I’ve been doing it for the 4 years of my life there in St Gabs and i’m pretty much used to being crazy)
I went home after Speech day to wash up and go out to study at STARBUCKS and oh lord,I’ve been pouring all my money and heart into Starbucks the past few days like crazy…I spent over $50 on Starbucks this week. Can you believe it?? It’s just crazy but I’m really crazy over Starbucks . And another thing is,I came up with a conclusion not to go to Starbuck with anyone,cause I finished my revision for Economics and successfully transferred most of my Literature notes into my notebook without getting distracted,it was pure bliss when I was alone and really concentrating. I feel so happy that my study session at Starbucks was really productive and I’m gonna do this on every weekend. I really need perfection and my straight As.
And when I came back home I just started taking selfies again cause today is a really good day,I met my Vocals,I met my teachers,I met my friends,I talked to someone who never talked to me in 15 months,it’s just crazy how life has become really pleasant even during the hardest times of my life with my faith on my God that He’s always there for me. I truly am grateful to God :)
I’m just so happy these days but I’m expecting something bad because one cannot be happy all the time,there has to be ups and downs to make a life meaningful,a life with no thrills is nothing but a dead,boring one and that’s not what I want my life to be. Truly,moving on from him is really one of the most painful part of my life but I realised it has turned my attention into my studies with so much vigour that even I cannot believe that I had so much potential. I don’t want to fall for anyone at the current moment,my heart has really faced too much from just two guys and it’s enough to teach me a lesson. Not to love anyone selflessly if they don’t love you the way you love them or don’t appreciate your feelings and mock them or fall for someone who doesn’t know what he wants in his life. And it’s so painful to hear people ask me “What exactly is it that you see in them (him) that made you love them (him)” cause I feel like they’re doubting that I actually had feelings for them and it’s really sensitive. Why I love them is cause they are the most beautiful souls I have ever met,not in appearance,but in heart. I don’t fall for anyone because they are good-looking but it’s something they did that make me like them,but truly I tell you,beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. But now both of them broke my heart so badly that I even gave up trying,I will never have anyone but my God because He’s all I have right now. Gosh,how did such a happy post turn into a sad one?? I’m gonna sleep now,gotta go church in the morning :) I really love going to church these days,it’s a really good break from all the stress and busy life and I just feel at peace and at home in church.